C H A P I C O.

if theres someone out there who needs to vent, im willing to listen without judgement. if you need a shoulder to cry on, ive got a clean shirt on, and some deodorant so it wont smell bad. basically im looking for someone who wants to exchange stories. someone who needs someone to trust. i mean why shouldnt you trust me? i have my own problems so how does being selfish help in any way. but seriously i could use a good heart to heart with someone if theyre willing. 

im confused about people. how can people say one thing but mean an entirely different thing. sometimes you say something bugs you, but then the next day you do something of the same nature. i hate how i ALWAYS put you first, but you dont realize it, u dont even notice the way i look at you is unlike any other person. there has never been a person where i have felt the need to comfort you the way you make me want to. i cant help feeling close to you. opening up to you was the best thing that couldve happened to me. and you started to open up to me too. i think thats wat makes me trust you so much… the fact that even though ive told u stuff that most people would shun me for, you still replyed with just as serious of an occasion. i really hope you realize that i only want the best for you. and i will go through hell for you to be happy. if only you listened to me when i tell you i love you. because whenever i say it theres soooooo much more meaning behind it than anyone in the whole world would know. when you cry i weep. when ur mad im furious. when you feel lost i wanna be the one to help you back. but when you tell me you dont like being you, i help you realize who you aare. you are the amazing person you have been to me. as much as i have done for you i feel like you have done more. youve helped me through rough times and you even stayed with me when i wanted you to leave. and i think thats why i love you soooo much. no matter how much shit ive done to you, you always forgive me and make it up even when you havnt done anything. maybe its just me, but i miss you. i miss you so much it hurts. i only want us to have these kinds of nights. where we stay up and talk, and open up. it makes me feel special. just like you. i love you. idk how else to say it. i love you.

i have a lot on my plate… idk how to place everything into priorities. i mean when i try and please some people, others get hurt. and when i try and please them too i only end up hurting someone else just as bad. i cant seem to make anything better. no matter how much i try it just doesnt work out the way i want it to. 

i have to be funny because being attractive is not an attainable option

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I talk about wanting a boyfriend but I don’t even know what I’d do with one like what do you just kiss him and then leave him alone in a corner how often does it eat

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